In trying to get caught up on the A-Z posts, I forgot Q. Skipped right over it!
oops!
Ummmm.....
Hrmmmmm....
I got nothing for Q.
Quaaludes: ha... sometimes I think I should be taking some. Ha. According to Wikipedia, a slang term for quaaludes back in the 70s was disco biscuits. I've never heard this term. Ha. Turns out such treats were or are used to treat insomnia. Hmmmm. I need to try to use disco biscuits in a sentence today. Work it into a conversation. In fact, I challenge you all, cool readers, to do the same and report back to me how that worked out for you.
Quail: is this a bird? Do people eat it? I've never had it. Never want to. I don't do birds except for chicken and that's only for the protein.
Quad: I miss being in college and sitting out on the quad on a nice spring day and watching the people walk by. I wouldn't miss classes because I overslept or was hung over, although that did happen enough. No, I missed many classes because I preferred to sit on the quad and people watch. This could explain why I didn't do so well in Bio and Algebra.
Quiet: I need to learn when to stay quiet. I speak too much when I shouldn't. However, being quiet is overrated. I have a voice that must be heard! And instead of being "quiet," I prefer being mysterious and evasive. There's a difference, you know.
Quitting: I'm not a quitter. It might take me a while to get something done, especially if I don't like what I have to do. I might procrastinate. I might get sidetracked, but I do eventually get shit done.
That's all I have for Q.
And yes, I'm serious about the disco biscuits challenge.
About Me
Monday, April 23, 2012
A-Z Rebates
If you've read previous posts, then you know the trouble I've had with AT&T regarding my Internet and bills and such over the last few months. Then you may have also read about my iphone upgrade, then me dropping my new phone in water, okay, the toilet at work to be exact, and then me having to go get a NEW iphone yet again.
AT&T may have just redeemed themselves and the bite I had to take in getting another iphone in the span of less than two months may have just been softened. In the mail today, I got two rebates from AT&T for a hundred bucks each. Nice!
Did I mention that the other day, the kid at the AT&T store was super nice and patient with me, doing some things with my bill to help me out? This is all good karma, so I need to make sure I do some good karma payback and pay it all forward.
AT&T may have just redeemed themselves and the bite I had to take in getting another iphone in the span of less than two months may have just been softened. In the mail today, I got two rebates from AT&T for a hundred bucks each. Nice!
Did I mention that the other day, the kid at the AT&T store was super nice and patient with me, doing some things with my bill to help me out? This is all good karma, so I need to make sure I do some good karma payback and pay it all forward.
A-Z Poetry Month: Push
In honor of National Poetry Month:
Push
.
.
I push
and I don't know it.
I blink
and I can see it.
It’s the brightness of the night,
the wake of the new day
that comes in silent motion,
hiding in the shadows…
waiting to consume me.
Frost took the road less traveled
and I’ll take the one beyond that,
the road that no one has seen before.
I’ll tear it up and wear it down.
I’ll push
through the dampness
through the roughness
through the catapult
to the other side.
Even treads run deep
over miles of cuts
deep in my skin;
scars, pushed into pain.
I pushed
and I didn’t know it
I blinked
and I saw it.
My eyes woke to dreams
and the road spoke
with its crooked fingers
welcoming me home.
A-Z Opportunity
I'm not usually one to recognize opportunity when I see it. Opportunity can slap me in the face, stand naked in front of me, or wear a big sign on its forehead and I might not see it because I'm too busy sipping an iced raspberry mocha or looking at someone's shoes. Living life this way means a lot will slip right on by you, right? Yup. In light of my new outlook on life, seizing the day and recognizing opportunity, I'm trying to be more aware of opportunities around me and seizing them when I can or when I should. This means I must step out of my comfort zone, pay more attention to the small things, and be optimistic.
This is true to my horoscope sign: I get bored very easily. Little holds my attention for long periods of time. This is why my mind wanders, my thoughts scatter, my eyes always try to take too much in. And again, because of this, I feel like I let too much get by me. I feel like I make the wrong choices, don't think my options through, don't realize what opportunities I should actually pursue and which ones are creations of my facade.
I guess I've always felt that there are two groups for opportunity. There are the opportunities you want to create for yourself because you want something. You'll go to the world's end to give yourself a chance to make every moment count and get what you want because you think the opportunity you are creating for yourself is the path you should be on. These aren't always the best or right opportunities for you but you don't care because you want something and figure you'll pay the piper if you have to.
Then there are the opportunities that fate presents, the opportunities the higher Gods want you to have because that's the path you should be on. These opportunities aren't going to necessarily be the same that you want, so you'll feel tricked or pushed into pursuing such chances. However, just because you don't want it doesn't mean they aren't what you should do, right?
Now, ponder the following questions: how do you recognize the differences between the two groups and what are the pros and cons of each?
I've learned recently that it's really okay to sometimes take a back seat to your life and let fate run its course. I can sip my mochas and be aware at the same time. It's all about training my mind and my attention span. I've learned recently that I really don't want too much more to fly by me. Sure, I'm all about the moment, living in THE moment, the here and now, and I don't want to lose that. At the same time, I think I can still be in THE moment and snatch a good opportunity if it arises in that moment, right?
This is true to my horoscope sign: I get bored very easily. Little holds my attention for long periods of time. This is why my mind wanders, my thoughts scatter, my eyes always try to take too much in. And again, because of this, I feel like I let too much get by me. I feel like I make the wrong choices, don't think my options through, don't realize what opportunities I should actually pursue and which ones are creations of my facade.
I guess I've always felt that there are two groups for opportunity. There are the opportunities you want to create for yourself because you want something. You'll go to the world's end to give yourself a chance to make every moment count and get what you want because you think the opportunity you are creating for yourself is the path you should be on. These aren't always the best or right opportunities for you but you don't care because you want something and figure you'll pay the piper if you have to.
Then there are the opportunities that fate presents, the opportunities the higher Gods want you to have because that's the path you should be on. These opportunities aren't going to necessarily be the same that you want, so you'll feel tricked or pushed into pursuing such chances. However, just because you don't want it doesn't mean they aren't what you should do, right?
Now, ponder the following questions: how do you recognize the differences between the two groups and what are the pros and cons of each?
I've learned recently that it's really okay to sometimes take a back seat to your life and let fate run its course. I can sip my mochas and be aware at the same time. It's all about training my mind and my attention span. I've learned recently that I really don't want too much more to fly by me. Sure, I'm all about the moment, living in THE moment, the here and now, and I don't want to lose that. At the same time, I think I can still be in THE moment and snatch a good opportunity if it arises in that moment, right?
Saturday, April 21, 2012
A-Z New Beginnings, Again
I'm behind on my A-Z posts, and I'll try to catch up by tomorrow, but it's been a busy few weeks for me, and the A-Z isn't the only thing I'm behind on. Pick and choose though, right? In the last week, especially, things have been in motion to bring change and new beginnings.
The great thing about life is that it is always changing on a dime. Expect the unexpected. The bad thing about life is that things are always changing. *smile* You get used to how things are and you get into your routine, then bam. Something changes. Things shake up.
Monday, I begin a new position at work. This is my night job, the one that provides my medical insurance. It will still be technically part time, but I'll get full time hours, will still have my medical, should get overtime, and won't have to pay union dues since it's not a union position. I'll be working as an auditor, doing inventory control and shipping and receiving stuff. Should be interesting! I'm looking forward to it just because it's something new. I should have a bit more freedom and independence, but I'll be working with a computer and making sure all the inventory is where it needs to be and trucks are loaded right and stuff like that. I don't think it will be as physical as what I do now, but I'll still be doing like a ton of walking, just not a ton of product selection, lifting, and stacking. Just a smidge more pay an hour, but I'm hoping overtime will be there to compensate.
Going into the summer, it might be a bit of a better job to do. Before I even knew I had to position, I also enrolled in 401k there. I figured if I was going to be there for a while, regardless, I could start an account. I still have my 401k from the company I worked for in IL, and while I don't contribute to that account, they are still managing it. I haven't touched it, nor will I, unless it's to roll it over somewhere else or to a bank. That's my retirement nest egg. That money is in some pretty decent funds that are holding pretty good right now, so we'll see how my other one does for a while and just go from there. I'm hoping also, that I will still be able to manage my contract work. I am beginning a new writing guideline for my current gig, and while I don't have hardly enough time now to do everything, I'm hoping I can get my time management on track and keep that extra money coming in so I can finally try to get ahead this summer.
This past week, I treated myself to a pedicure, which I needed SO bad, and I bought a new comforter set for my bedroom. Small stuff, sure, but to me, those were luxuries. I bought a Chaps comforter and it is soooo nice. Very bohemian. Comfy. Fluffy. Pretty. Calming. The old set was brought from IL last year, and it was time to ditch it and get something new, that was just mine. I took alot of stuff with me from IL after the divorce, and slowly but surely, I'll replace it all, but that all takes time and money, so for now, I am happy with what I have, what I took. I never took what I did to be vengeful, just to actually use because I knew I couldn't afford new stuff right off the bat.
I'm working with a wellness coach too. Stress management lol. It's through my benefits at work, and it's free and to keep my low monthly premium, I have to participate in this program, so we are working on helping me sleep better at night, which we hope in turn will help me manage my time better and manage my stress. So I'm trying breathing techniques that are supposed to calm me and clear my mind. I'm still battling insomnia, and when I do fall asleep, I'm waking up two hours later and can't get back to sleep.
I'll be the owner of my car later this month! Waiting on the title. It's paid off, thanks to the ex. That was the last thing we had a tie to. I got a new iphone. Well, I got the 4 about a month and a half ago, and dropped it in water the other day. It died. So I had to go back and got the 4s, which I initially wanted but they didn't have in stock the first time around. I also got insurance this time around lol! So this 4s has Siri, which is sooooo cool! I have my own little assistant with me wherever I go now!
So, these are my new beginnings: new job, new comforter, new phone. Small things in retrospect, but for me, it shows that I've been maybe on the right track the last few months and things do eventually come together. You may never know just how are why things work out the way they do, but if you are calm and patient and just go with the flow, the things that NEED to happen will!
The great thing about life is that it is always changing on a dime. Expect the unexpected. The bad thing about life is that things are always changing. *smile* You get used to how things are and you get into your routine, then bam. Something changes. Things shake up.
Monday, I begin a new position at work. This is my night job, the one that provides my medical insurance. It will still be technically part time, but I'll get full time hours, will still have my medical, should get overtime, and won't have to pay union dues since it's not a union position. I'll be working as an auditor, doing inventory control and shipping and receiving stuff. Should be interesting! I'm looking forward to it just because it's something new. I should have a bit more freedom and independence, but I'll be working with a computer and making sure all the inventory is where it needs to be and trucks are loaded right and stuff like that. I don't think it will be as physical as what I do now, but I'll still be doing like a ton of walking, just not a ton of product selection, lifting, and stacking. Just a smidge more pay an hour, but I'm hoping overtime will be there to compensate.
Going into the summer, it might be a bit of a better job to do. Before I even knew I had to position, I also enrolled in 401k there. I figured if I was going to be there for a while, regardless, I could start an account. I still have my 401k from the company I worked for in IL, and while I don't contribute to that account, they are still managing it. I haven't touched it, nor will I, unless it's to roll it over somewhere else or to a bank. That's my retirement nest egg. That money is in some pretty decent funds that are holding pretty good right now, so we'll see how my other one does for a while and just go from there. I'm hoping also, that I will still be able to manage my contract work. I am beginning a new writing guideline for my current gig, and while I don't have hardly enough time now to do everything, I'm hoping I can get my time management on track and keep that extra money coming in so I can finally try to get ahead this summer.
This past week, I treated myself to a pedicure, which I needed SO bad, and I bought a new comforter set for my bedroom. Small stuff, sure, but to me, those were luxuries. I bought a Chaps comforter and it is soooo nice. Very bohemian. Comfy. Fluffy. Pretty. Calming. The old set was brought from IL last year, and it was time to ditch it and get something new, that was just mine. I took alot of stuff with me from IL after the divorce, and slowly but surely, I'll replace it all, but that all takes time and money, so for now, I am happy with what I have, what I took. I never took what I did to be vengeful, just to actually use because I knew I couldn't afford new stuff right off the bat.
I'm working with a wellness coach too. Stress management lol. It's through my benefits at work, and it's free and to keep my low monthly premium, I have to participate in this program, so we are working on helping me sleep better at night, which we hope in turn will help me manage my time better and manage my stress. So I'm trying breathing techniques that are supposed to calm me and clear my mind. I'm still battling insomnia, and when I do fall asleep, I'm waking up two hours later and can't get back to sleep.
I'll be the owner of my car later this month! Waiting on the title. It's paid off, thanks to the ex. That was the last thing we had a tie to. I got a new iphone. Well, I got the 4 about a month and a half ago, and dropped it in water the other day. It died. So I had to go back and got the 4s, which I initially wanted but they didn't have in stock the first time around. I also got insurance this time around lol! So this 4s has Siri, which is sooooo cool! I have my own little assistant with me wherever I go now!
So, these are my new beginnings: new job, new comforter, new phone. Small things in retrospect, but for me, it shows that I've been maybe on the right track the last few months and things do eventually come together. You may never know just how are why things work out the way they do, but if you are calm and patient and just go with the flow, the things that NEED to happen will!
Thursday, April 19, 2012
A-Z Making Others Happy
Pleasing other people is impossible! You don't move fast enough? Well, you're slowing others down. Moving too fast? Well, you're making others look bad. Not saying the right thing that someone wants to hear? Well, you are being argumentative. Yes, this is more a rant than a blog post, but I really just need to vent!
It seems that nothing I do or say can make other person happy. I am always doing or saying something wrong. This is how I feel. Now, what I need to figure out is: is it me? Or, is it them? If it happens so often and I feel this way so often, then it must be me. Either that, or the current people in my life that I have interaction with are all just goofy as hell and I can't find the page they are on.
The only thing I seem to please is my dog. She's happy when I take her out, feed her, and toss the baby around. Baby=Toy. Or I just have to say hey to her, pet her, look at her. And she's happy. If people and men were that simple, I'd have it made in my life. I guess men could be that simple. Sex, food, sports, love. Is that all they need?
Moving on...
It seems that nothing I do or say can make other person happy. I am always doing or saying something wrong. This is how I feel. Now, what I need to figure out is: is it me? Or, is it them? If it happens so often and I feel this way so often, then it must be me. Either that, or the current people in my life that I have interaction with are all just goofy as hell and I can't find the page they are on.
The only thing I seem to please is my dog. She's happy when I take her out, feed her, and toss the baby around. Baby=Toy. Or I just have to say hey to her, pet her, look at her. And she's happy. If people and men were that simple, I'd have it made in my life. I guess men could be that simple. Sex, food, sports, love. Is that all they need?
Moving on...
A-Z Lurking
I have Directv, and I really don't want that much tv, nor have I actually sat down to mess with all the functions available through Directv. Then I found the apps last night. Uh oh. I can check my mail, connect to FB, neither of which I'll do over the tv, but still.... I can look at space images, check my horoscope, and keep track of baseball scores. The lurking part comes in from using the world web cam app. It's pretty cool. Webcam images from all over the world in slide show format flash across the tv screen. I feel like I'm lurking all over the entire world! Which I guess I am. Las Vegas, Germany, places I've never friggin heard of! In real time. Ok, like a two minute delay but still. Panama City? At 1115 am, the beach was pretty barren! No one on the lake in Hot Springs, AK. 5 pm in Hamburg. Quitting time there! Aruba? OMG the white sand! I wish I was there. Loving this app!
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